Indecision is killing me

OK, so I am supposed to be getting ready to go to China now. Well not this second, but in the next several months. Problem is, I had an interview with ELIC yesterday and some things just don't sit right with me. Mainly things having to do with policy. These are the issues I have. First of all I would be asked to not have a relationship with anyone for the first year. Secondly I would never be allowed to date a Chinese national. Third I wouldn't start working on my masters degree until one year after I arrived. OK these things make sense to me, and I can understand the need for precautions, especially when you are sending people right out of college. The tendency is for young people to search for security in relationships, and in this way they end up in relationships they didn't really think through. Remember freshmen year in college anyone? So I understand this, but still feel restrained, and as if this isn't something that should apply to me. The second point about never being able to marry a Chinese is sort of odd to me too. Not that I have my sights set on marrying one, but I know there are many great women all over the world, why must I be limited to only Americans especially when I'm surrounded by 1.3 Billion Chinese. And The idea of having to wait another year to start something like my masters, just makes me sick of waiting. Honestly, I would rather start a family when I am younger, than have a masters and start one when I'm older. That's my opinion on that. So I'm not sure what to do, and where to turn. My friend Robert in Taiwan is still praying for my return. He better be, because deep down I still want to go back there. I spent a year building relationships and now I've abandoned them